Hey, All!

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How’s it going, lovelies? I finished a 2 page paper I had to write in English, so now I’m putting off turning it in, because i don’t want to do any more work. So I figured i’d give you all a post.

I finished my dramatic monologue for Drama last night. I think it’s pretty good, my self, but what do you all think?

Dramatic Monologue– My Baby

I never wanted to leave you, you know. It’s not like one day, out of the blue, I thought ‘Hey, I’m going to leave everything I know in this world behind and hope it all works out!’ It doesn’t work like that. It starts out a stray thought one day, while you’re driving to work. Just an innocent longing for something a little… more. No mother ever looks into her baby girl’s eyes, and plans on abandoning her, to fend off a world that just isn’t ready for her. No mother actually thinks leaving an 8-year-old girl alone with two toddlers for days at a time is good parenting. I loved you and your sisters. I still do.

You’re all grown up now, almost 18 years old. I don’t know if you remember me, or if I really even want you to. I wanted to come back to you, I really did! It’s just… Coming back to you after 9 years would do nothing but hurt you. I know, because it would hurt me, and you’re just like me. I’ve watched you cry yourself to sleep for days on end, even when no one else sees it. Every day I see you put on that same mask, and am unable to do anything to help you. I watch you cling hopelessly to every single relationship you can, and it hurts, so much, knowing I’m the reason you don’t trust anyone to stand by you, no matter what. I just wish I could find some way to tell you just how sorry I am, how much I regret leaving you to a family that doesn’t understand you. That sees your dreams, and makes a mockery of them.

‘I’m sorry’ just seems so… so cheap, when I think about all the pain I put you through. But I am. Sorry, that is. Look what I’ve turned you into! You have no self-esteem, when you should have all the self-esteem in the world. You are a brilliant, wonderful girl, and I wish I could tell you so. I know you don’t believe in God, baby, but one day, one sad, perfect day, we will be together again. And I will spend everyday from then on, trying to make it up to you. Every missed recital, every birthday, every heartbreak. Every boring, meaningless moment of your life. Just wait, baby girl, just wait.  I love you.

Is it good? I can tell you, writing a dramatic monologue is a lot easier then writing a comedic one! I’m only funny if I improv it, which I doubt we’ll be allowed to just improv a whole monologue. I can’t be funny in monologue form! It’s just not possible. When i write something funny, I end up turning it into a story, with a full plotline, and cast of character. Which are definitely not required for monologues. At all.

I promised myself i wouldn’t mention Darren Criss at all today. Guess I lost. I can’t help it, though! I was on YouTube and I came across Baby it’s Cold Outside, Glee version, and I love it. I hate that song, too, so… Darren Criss is fun. And he’s been boosting my daily views insanely, because people Google him, and I have about… 12 posts about him.


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3 responses to “Hey, All!

  1. Ashlei

    I loveeeeeee your monologue but it makes you sound like a creeper when you write about how you saw your baby cry herself to sleep? is it what you imagined or did you sneak over to her fosters parents house and watch??? lol

  2. Jounouchi Katsuya

    I’m with Ashlei, that’s not how it sounded at all. It sounds like you were having a tough time supporting everyone in your family so you put them up for adoption and left, and then it does make you sound like a creeper. And you just “came across” something with this Darren Criss guy? Haha, I do not believe you. XP

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