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How’s it going, lovelies? I finished a 2 page paper I had to write in English, so now I’m putting off turning it in, because i don’t want to do any more work. So I figured i’d give you all a post.

I finished my dramatic monologue for Drama last night. I think it’s pretty good, my self, but what do you all think?

Dramatic Monologue– My Baby

I never wanted to leave you, you know. It’s not like one day, out of the blue, I thought ‘Hey, I’m going to leave everything I know in this world behind and hope it all works out!’ It doesn’t work like that. It starts out a stray thought one day, while you’re driving to work. Just an innocent longing for something a little… more. No mother ever looks into her baby girl’s eyes, and plans on abandoning her, to fend off a world that just isn’t ready for her. No mother actually thinks leaving an 8-year-old girl alone with two toddlers for days at a time is good parenting. I loved you and your sisters. I still do.

You’re all grown up now, almost 18 years old. I don’t know if you remember me, or if I really even want you to. I wanted to come back to you, I really did! It’s just… Coming back to you after 9 years would do nothing but hurt you. I know, because it would hurt me, and you’re just like me. I’ve watched you cry yourself to sleep for days on end, even when no one else sees it. Every day I see you put on that same mask, and am unable to do anything to help you. I watch you cling hopelessly to every single relationship you can, and it hurts, so much, knowing I’m the reason you don’t trust anyone to stand by you, no matter what. I just wish I could find some way to tell you just how sorry I am, how much I regret leaving you to a family that doesn’t understand you. That sees your dreams, and makes a mockery of them.

‘I’m sorry’ just seems so… so cheap, when I think about all the pain I put you through. But I am. Sorry, that is. Look what I’ve turned you into! You have no self-esteem, when you should have all the self-esteem in the world. You are a brilliant, wonderful girl, and I wish I could tell you so. I know you don’t believe in God, baby, but one day, one sad, perfect day, we will be together again. And I will spend everyday from then on, trying to make it up to you. Every missed recital, every birthday, every heartbreak. Every boring, meaningless moment of your life. Just wait, baby girl, just wait.  I love you.

Is it good? I can tell you, writing a dramatic monologue is a lot easier then writing a comedic one! I’m only funny if I improv it, which I doubt we’ll be allowed to just improv a whole monologue. I can’t be funny in monologue form! It’s just not possible. When i write something funny, I end up turning it into a story, with a full plotline, and cast of character. Which are definitely not required for monologues. At all.

I promised myself i wouldn’t mention Darren Criss at all today. Guess I lost. I can’t help it, though! I was on YouTube and I came across Baby it’s Cold Outside, Glee version, and I love it. I hate that song, too, so… Darren Criss is fun. And he’s been boosting my daily views insanely, because people Google him, and I have about… 12 posts about him.


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Glee is Totally Awesome!

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I seriously am in love with this show! I don’t know… okay, maybe I do know, but I don’t like that some people don’t like this show! It’s just such a giggle inducing pile of lovely, musical goop, and I love it. It’s a show about real people, people you see everyday, people you call friends. It’s not a warm, fluffy blanket of goodness, like ‘Friends‘, or a ridiculous, drama filled blah, like ‘Desperate Housewives‘. It’s honest, and funny, and sad, and cute, and annoying. It’s a person. Glee is like your best friend, but with a better voice. Next week’s episode is going to be really good, and I anticipate lots of laughs. Though, I predicted lots of tears for last week’s, and just got a lot of stunned silence. And squealing when Darren Criss sang, of course. I downloaded all the AVPM/AVPS songs today, and haven’t stopped listening to them since. Except for the two hour break for Glee and Raising Hope, of course.

You know, with my luck, the first famous person to read my blog, would be Darren. Not someone who I like, but am not all super insane about, no. It’ll be the boy (man? boyman?) who I grinned insanely for because his name was mentioned in the Johnny Depp/Angelina Jolie issue of Entertainment Weekly. Not even a picture, of anything, just a little blurb about the Glee Christmas cd, because he sings ‘Baby it’s Cold Outside’ with Kurt. it’s even worse then when I was going through my ‘Keanu Reeves‘ phase, and freaked out because someone visited my blog who was from where Keanu was born, and there’s a tiny chance Imaybethoughtitwashim! So… Glee tonight wasn’t much, though. The songs were good and all, but like I told Willow, now that they’ve introduced the general public to Darren, they’re just going to have to get used to people demanding he sing a song every episode. Preferably to Kurt. Or about Kurt. Hell, as long as the two of them are in the same room together, and Darren’s singing, I think we can cope!

Now, I am a loving person, I like to believe, but I can honestly say, that if I could only pick five material items to save from oblivion, they’d be:

  1. Glee- Do I really need to explain why?
  2. The 7th and 3rd Harry Potter books– The 7th because it’s the end of an era, the third because of the suspiciously long hug between Remus and Sirius. I’m sorry, but I hate Dumbledore, and I refuse to believe he’s the only gay character in a seven part series. (Also, I can’t believe people never got that he was gay. By the 4th book, you know there’s something going on.)
  3. My laptop- I hate my laptop, I sometimes dream that I shoot it repeatedly with Trici’s Glock, but it’s the only connection to you guys I have.
  4. It’s a Wonderful Life– For when my laptop stops working, and I need a reason to live.
  5. A tv- To watch Glee and it’s a Wonderful Life.

And that’s it for today, folks. Darren Criss, if you ever stumble upon this blog, I love you, and I’m sorry I am so insanely enamored of you. And that I am kind of set in my idea that you are gay. I make pretty much any cute guy not in a committed relationship gay, though, so it’s not just you.

And yes, that is a picture of Keanu Reeves eating a sandwich. I wish I was that sandwich…


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